20.12.2012

I guess I shall blog today.. 

They said world end tomorrow, If I'm on tomorrow, you know I survived. If I don't, then, most probably is my last post.

No matter it happens or not, life still go on and nothing special today.. 

stressful week

It is Friday. So, the stressful week has finally over and I managed to get all my things done but didn't do it the best. I was working on last weekend, in the same time, I was having 3 quizzes, 1 presentation, assignments and class to attend last week.

Not just the time that is not enough, also the stress I was having. Basically, I focused more on my presentation, because I was so worried about it as I'm having stage fright problem even I have done so many presentations.

When I focus on my presentation, I tends to worry about other thing as well, because I have to study for quizzes also. Sadly, I didnt do well in my quizzes, I only get 12/15 for my macro quiz, and realized I did so many mistake in acc 2 quiz too. FML. 

As for my presentation, I was so nervous when the moment I was presenting, don't even know what I was saying, mentioned the drug's name wrongly too. Then saw one of my classmate 's face was like 

oh shit. So embarrassed. Surprisingly, lecturer said it was good as I did a lot of research and the content was good. One of my classmate came and told she like my explanation bout those drugs also. But obviously I have not presented well. 

 my speech

Eye bags is what I get in the end.. Didn't have a good sleep at all. 

Promise to work harder next time. 

Be a better person

Currently in Segi's computer lab now, having 2 hours break in between classes. Need to kill time so decided to blog a little. 2 hours is not long but when you're alone. it feels super long.

I was abit angry at one of my group mate just now while having group discussion with her. Im angry becuz the way she talk to me is abit impolite. Me, as a senior I think I have been through more than her and I exactly know what I should do. All Im trying to say is she can actually talk nicely and tell me about her suggestion, instead of acting like mother, you know how a mother talk to you when she think that she is right.

Besides, I posted it out in my 2012 wishes post, saying that I want to be a better person to everyone and I felt kinda guilty for being angry at that moment, I tell myself I shouldn't be like this, I should forgive her. Guess I failed at that moment, but at least I never show my anger to her.

I guess we all have cognitive dissonance problem, when there is a discrepancy between beliefs and behaviors. Or maybe is just me, I always face this problem. The purpose of this post is actually a reminder to myself, so that I could learn and try to be a better person. Leo have bad temper, you know I tried my best not to be mad easily and I did, just not good enough. Ciao.

My life so far

College had started almost a month, I have given lotsa assignment, quizzes and presentation. But, I don't know why I got no, zero motivation to study at all, not just study but everything. I've been skipping class lately, not doing my assignment, not studying for my quizzes. I felt so guilty skipping class and copying my friend's work, even  friend ask what happen to me, this is so not me. All I do in class are sleep and daydream.

Maybe I had too much fun with my besties during the 3 weeks holiday and the one week of CNY holiday just make me felt like Im in heaven. I love Penang, all my cousin are there, totally with no stress at there, all I do is just eat, sleep and have fun. I actually tot of  deferring my study and staying in Penang for a period of time, probably find a temporary job there. But you know, easier said than done.

I guess I just need a break from what Im facing right now. I hate to go to class alone, especially with subject that Im not confident with, I hate to stay at home alone, friends are always not free, I hate assignments, presentation and I hate all those unwanted situations and problems I faced, but no one know, Im tired of being a clown to put on a fake smile in a group of friends, I dont like rejection and ignorance. I hate when my friend put me in an uncomfortable situation and they never realize Im so reluctant to stay and I feel pressure to hangout with a group of working adult and I'm the only student, but it's so hard to reject your friend invitation sometime. I know Im complaining too much but I just need to express it out.

CNY 2012

1st of all, before CNY end, here wishing everyone happy Chinese New Year once again, all the best in the year of dragon. Wish come true. I have too many pictures in hand , which is impossible for me to put everything in one post, so I will just make it short here.

As the same, Im back in hometown, Penang, for CNY. What's different this year is I was staying in Flamingo hotel for 2 nights, which I really like the place because it's just few step away from the beach.
And, for the very 1st time Im meeting my friends in Penang. Surprisingly, I have number of friends visiting Penang on CNY but never happen to bump into them. Karaoke session with families for the 1st time is awesome.

CNY was great as I get to spend time with my families, the best moment ever. Sadly, I only stay there for one week, wish to spend more time with my families, only see some of my cousins on 1st day of CNY only and I didnt get to eat much of penang's food but home cook is delicious.

my view from room.

I will own one of those boat one day.

penang's ice kacang is THE BEST. 

I want to bring this little thing back to KL.

Sorry that about it. more pic on fb.

2012 Malacca food trip

So  I headed to Malacca once again, the 6th times, just realized was with different group of peoples each times. This time was with my lovely schoolmates, 7 years of friendship and this our 1st road trip.

The whole trip was just about food, food, and food, didnt even visit anywhere for a walk. There goes 9 Malacca's food in a day.

<3

1st stop, Malacca famous chicken rice ball. The one at corner, 中华茶室, if im not wrong. 

I still prefer the one I visited last time, cant rmb the name but the one 阿贤went before. 

2nd stop, cendol. Suitable for such a hot weather. 

3rd stop, pork satay! 1st time trying this, not bad

@Ming Sate hut, plaza mahkota

monopoly deal to burn some time.

\Malacca famous layer cake @ Nadeje Patisserie Cafe, plaza mahkota, few shop away from ming sate hut only. They have 2 outlets.

the 1st time I went only left original flavor, finally this time get to try other flavor.. Nice nice.

The interior design damn nice.

We likeaboss.

Next, klebang coconut shake. at road side, you have to find it yourself. 

I wanted to try this badly but didnt get a chance to try on my previous trip

and finally this time!! 

Then, we went to kokyan's grandmom's house for a nap. 

His grandmom was kind enough to let 9 of us to sleep at her hse.. LOL

thanks =) paiseh la.

6th round, satay celup, Im not sure where is this place but it's nice and cheaper.

7th stop, Won ton mee @ bukit cina. Different from KL's becuz this they used  pork oil.

oh  jian@ jalan bunga raya. 

Not really nice for me cuz it's too dry and over cooked until you cant even find the oyster.

But for those who dont like oyster, you probably like this.

 Last round, lala@ bunga raya's lorong besides madam king.

This place is famous.

So called campur campur. LOL

I liked.

lala.

ok thats all for the day.

180km/j back to KL in an hour. @.@

2012 wishes.

I always did, tried to be nice to everyone and never take anyone for granted. 

I wish I do better each year, and everyone like me as who I am.

I love music and I love to sing as everyone know.

I will regret in my life if I never know how to play any musical instruments.

Perhaps you don't know my biggest weakness is lack of security. I'm afraid of darkness,  I cant sleep without hugging anything like pillow, and I worry a lot, you just dont know!!

Worst is financial insecure!! 

I really hope I can just be honest sometime to tell ppl how I exactly feel but it was the hardest thing for me. I keep everything to myself, always.

This is important for me!!!! most important!! How do I survive without money!! 

I don't have pocket money you know! 

death & love

I came across with this song today, which is called death & love from Billy Klippert. I don't know if you guys have heard of the song, 死了都要爱 from 信乐团. Kinda surprise when I knew that death & love was the English version of 死了都要爱, and I really in love the song.I been repeating the song for the whole day. Somehow, make me freaking emo.
 It do have Korean version, but don't really like it.

All I have is this faded picture in my hand 

sad though it seems 

but this is who we used to be 

to see your face is the only thing that keeps me sane 

and carries me through the sham