Maybe I had too much fun with my besties during the 3 weeks holiday and the one week of CNY holiday just make me felt like Im in heaven. I love Penang, all my cousin are there, totally with no stress at there, all I do is just eat, sleep and have fun. I actually tot of deferring my study and staying in Penang for a period of time, probably find a temporary job there. But you know, easier said than done.
I guess I just need a break from what Im facing right now. I hate to go to class alone, especially with subject that Im not confident with, I hate to stay at home alone, friends are always not free, I hate assignments, presentation and I hate all those unwanted situations and problems I faced, but no one know, Im tired of being a clown to put on a fake smile in a group of friends, I dont like rejection and ignorance. I hate when my friend put me in an uncomfortable situation and they never realize Im so reluctant to stay and I feel pressure to hangout with a group of working adult and I'm the only student, but it's so hard to reject your friend invitation sometime. I know Im complaining too much but I just need to express it out.
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